a difficult day

I watch as he walks with his son, and I see the joy in his eyes and the way he is so proud.  But underneath it all I know there is sadness and I feel his pain.  I try so hard to put on a good face so my grandson and his Daddy will think all is well.  It is so hard and at times I just want to give up, but I am a strong woman and this is my flesh and this is my calling to be there.  Today is Fathers Day and I try to make it special.  After his child leaves to go back to his Mother, we sit and talk and he trys to tell me how he feels and that he is getting better at all this.  I want to believe.  God hear my cry as I ask for wholeness and newness of life for this my eldest child.